What I believe and xmas is finally here

It finally Christmas I cant believe my eyes but it is over the past few 18 months or so I learning in job but I realize it good have good challenge but it also hard I guess that way of life.

I am plan and change my life in way I want get more independent and move in flat and learn thing that way then maybe get better job that I might be able do but I have feeling that things change in life u stay in same situation all your life because if u did be quite boring I reckon so that what I think.

things make think that I do have problems but I am not that bad really just I think it big to me another people see it as it small but that maze me in way. But I guess it not big because see people more problems then I have guess.

but hey I am know got small problem and I know it not proud thing think of yourself as that but I guess always people to help or get some help in way so I guess I am the world there no be afraid or alone but I got learn to get see where go understand that I get where I want understand that I am not peterct in life hey I got not lot that have problem like my family have few

like emample my dad suffer from heart attack when I was young and he got depression and my sisters and aunty and my mum got hearing aid now she is deaf but she is getting old but not that old hahaha.

But hey i am happy with my family and friends that I have and I don't put anyone down unless I am joking but hey that fun we have in life. There lot of things I want to reevice in my life but I guess you cant have them all.

for example I want lady to be with but hey cant make that happened I wait for that to happened and see what further told in me.

I didn't realized that I know quite lot of things but I guess it what think of that count and not what another people think for you.

but I guess you cant be like that through it hard to see things like that I don't know if I understand myself but hey there something that there something telling me thing that I never thought of and it not people tell me it something but not sure what it is that what belief.

anyway I get to bit about cruising day and the why Jesus brought here.

okay believe that there is god as Jesus with he came to earth to test and tell people about his birthday to that he was born in stable but whateve he wanted to tell was inpormant to stop all the wars and bad things happening but hey that not Christmas about it about loving each people in soul of family and god and Jesus in holy of spirits in peace in us and what we share together at Christmas and care for ones we loved be to be loved way we are why we brought here to lovely planet of earth. Anyway that what think may disagree with me but that what I think. I may not be clear what I actually mean but hey it tried to be person to make season,

But what happened if that god and them aint true it could just be fake but I don't think it because we would not been here today if it was not true

and what is life after death well that is big question I dunno
maybe we come another insect and go through all the animal and then to heaven I don't know.

why do we work and why do we live fight the world we don't know why were sent to fight our land why we send to place that we don't know of well only person can tell you is god but that is interested subject but I am not go on.