hi again

I am not working at monment and i am looking for job and flat and i got offer one in linden for tempoery but some one esle ask me if like be their flatmate johnville but i am not what i am going do but i will have to see.

anyway i am happy with my life and i am dating someone at monment her jeanine i dont know how far it will go. Also i have found that dont know what do in life in job but i am looking into job like supermarkets but mc donald and coucil turn me down and feeling that hard to find something.

to be honest i didnt like porirua college it make me feel yuck and the man there was good for few 12 months but the 12 months he couldnt be bothered help me and it hard because of my mild intellical which mean learinging difficult and coornating probelm and short term memory.

be honest i want to flatting it will be big option for me to get indenpence and i heard there worse people then i am in flatting.

i am scared of finding another job be honest because feel that i wont get another job why but i am and it will be challenge for me i havent told anyone one in my family but how i am feeling right now.

beacuse i am feel that i might not be able to work and i felt that for long time even when before i left porirua college and waata didnt help me he made me feel worst that it will be hard for me to find job.

but the only thing i can get out of my system is ten pin bowling and going out and having fun.

but i am happy at monment and it good cos there is good things happeneing in my life

one of my good things is nephews turning older as they get bigger and i cant belive it lol

I CANT BELVIE MY NEPHEW IS SIX AND MY OTHER NEPHEW IS FOUR

I was digiosed with mild intellical disabltiy and I also told i cant drive as i got problem with my ablitles on the road and that it would be dangerous for me drive on roads

I was driving one day with test officer and i went pass the give way sign but didnt see it but he said that was give sign there have to be one u stop automantly and didnt know that. and want to drive but my family dont want me to. and i changed into wrong lanes. i had test to me done it cost me 196.89 for on road test. and neouogly person told me i wont be safe to drive ever i said i want drive but i guess i cant. and i had lots of lesson in pass. so i do not agree still and i do what my family want about me driving oh well.

I getting support from my support worker so I gald because I dont know what i would done with out him and my support from kapti support and i do thanks my sister Rachel and mum.

I think if i didnt get i would of giving up now and that why i didnt want to work when i was on benefit for 5 years it was horriable and i still dont want to be on it. but i had made lots of friends and i am happy and finally left site findsomeone.

i am still worried what i am going do in job that people wont take me because me and deafness and that i dont have skills. i have gone through lot in past i am glad it not that bad but it seem to me it is.

well that life guess

but tell u i am not going go through the 5 years i did. no way

do have problem with my back but that minor

and my mum and dad going for hoildays for see her mum and that good for her i reckon because that she was sick before granny jock and she better now and i am going say what it is

all the family know.

good express my feeling i wish i done this early and i been lazy at doing it


but that what feel

oh my dad have passed 60 th 2 years ago he is now 62 and that cool

and my sister just finally turn 30th in sepember it was good.